No more sweatpants

 Fourth day in this blog post shit. There isn't much on my mind like the days before, feels like I just had to vent out what was on my mind so I can think clearly. Tbh there's this mindset that I want to adapt. It's the "Stop being a fucking PHHHHUUSSSYYY" and please stress on the P. I don't have anything that's bothering me or fucking with my peace "الحمدلله", but one thing that still keeps me up at night, that BIG fucking ass closet that I'm craving. Filled with a lot and by a lot I mean like twenty plus leather jackets, a collection of watches, belts and some nice ass Mexican boots that have the little metal chain around them. 

I love getting ready, some music in the background, a drink on the vanity poured into a very chic expensive looking glass من النيش طيعا and me standing there just getting ready and enjoying these moments, why I'm mentioning this?, oh yes, for the next couple of months that's all I'm going to be doing, getting ready and showing up everyday, I need to stop wearing fucking sweatpants. One other thing that I could see myself doing, is driving my car 9 or even 8 am in the morning blasting Brazilian Phonk, and sipping my coffee with a straight "ايه الاصطباحة ديه" face. 

Laptop so fucking cracked it's burning my fucking lap. Stumbled across a reel right now "Do it, If you're going to try, go all the way, otherwise don't even start, this could be losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs or even your mind", I like the first part, the remaining is just bullshit in my opinion, I'm not afraid to lose my fucking friends friends come and go, but family, come on, and wtf is it that I'll do that would made me lose my "relatives" I think that's a bit too harsh, don't you think?

I'm excited about something and that doesn't happen often, but I need to play it right this time, dedication, and some fucking accountability for fuck's sake. I don't know what to expect tbh, I don't want to put very high expectations, I just need to put in all my effort, time and mind. Things tend to go badly when I get overly excited about something, trying to master detachment, that's why recently I'm not trying to maintain, especially people, I'm not trying to maintain any people in my life, "Peace over chaos ". 

I'm still very young to be this serious, but when I take a closer look into I'd rather be this way than to be a dumb bitch. Again, excepting nothing yet putting all my effort, it will pay back that's how it works, and yes failing doesn't even enter my consciousness. And that was a fucking hard word to spell. same goes for beautiful and gorgeous.

I'll keep you updated, been reading the "Who moved my cheese" book and that was in the first page, I just had to mention it here:

"Life is no straight and easy corridor along which we travel free and unhampered, but a maze of passages, through which we must seek our way, lost and confused, now and again checked in a blind alley. But always, if we have faith, a door will open for us, not perhaps one that we ourselves would ever have thought of, but one that will ultimately prove good for us."

And...I'm just going to leave this here...See you tomorrow. 

"اللي بينتصر....مش اللي بيملك القوة, اللي بيملك الارادة"

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