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I did write today, after two blogs, after carefully evaluating and reading them, I decided not to share them, I don't feel frustrated that I didn't post them, instead I'm trying to improve what I'm writing, I know that at the end, it's me and 3 others who are viewing and reading whatever the shit I'm writing. The point is that I'm not writing to impress, I'm writing because I truly enjoy that shit. Well, it's not typically 3, I once had around 44 views, but I still enjoy it. 

"Then, you remember who the fuck are you" type of feeling, that I'm feeling right now, nothing feels better than knowing that you're hitting new PR's, you have money in the bank, and no one is stressing you out. No anxiety of "when will he call", "why he didn't text back". كنت في النادي لسه طالعة من تمرينة رجل و الدنيا حلوة, بتفرج علي ماتش مصر و مش عارفة مين كلهم سود كده كده, و اتعرفت علي الاء. بنت لطيفة محجبة زي العسل خريجة هندسة. الكلام اخدنا شوية و راحت قالتلي علي الواد اللي مبهدل حياتها و مش مخليها عارفة تنام. 

 يا بنتي و انتي بتتكلمي مع واحد لسه بيبعت ستريكس علي سناب ليه اصلا ده معدي العشرين سنة.

I can't even imagine myself with someone, I can't be texting them between my sets, in my breaks, during my "own" time and definitely spending the day off with them sounds like a fucking waste, until you meet that one specific fucking person, you can't help but enjoy and every fucking second with them, a conversation filled with laughter, type shit, and suddenly being with "someone" doesn't sound like a fucking chore, finally. 

2026, I only want to be making money, memories, and maybe some more money, I promised myself that starting from 1/1/26 "sounds so fucking cliché", I won't let anyone interrupt my fucking peace, I don't want to spend my time maintaining time and relationships, fuck that shit, I only want to enjoy my time, just as much as I can, this year was full of good memories, and great opportunities "I've been spending too much time on LinkedIn", there are some ass shit times too that I could have prevented or maybe even dodged, but hey being 20 is all about learning and learning and more learning. 

I can't help but wonder how will I be like in my 30's, tbh I want to be raising 3 children, curly headed ass babies with anger issues just like their mom, I want to still have a job "better" a business, and a loving gentle husband, C'mon I want to be a full time housewife in my 30's. Being 20 comes with a different package, it's all about learning, graduating, finding a job, another job, and definitely another third job. And while listening to "اسال روحك - ام كلثوم", بتقول اخترت ابعد و عرفت اعند" 

That made me wonder, sometimes, most of the time, distance is the answer. I like to have some distance when I'm feeling all over the place, when I feel to attached. Distance and silence are the way to go sometimes. I'm excited to see what else life has to throw at me, what situations will I be able to handle, typ shit, more learning has to come I guess. 

I mentioned that I re-wrote this blog twice at the start cause I needed to remind myself that's it's always okay to start over, start over in life, a job, a situation. But "never" a person. I mean if we were really meant together "why did we go through all that fuck shit". Right ?

Anyways, 2026 is going to be all about learning new things, new topics and things that actually make me feel like a human, I even want to travel by April or May, Taba or Siwa, either one of them is waiting for me. 

I'm excited, yet careful, but hey don't forget to "Connect with me on LinkedIn type shit Iram Elshafie | LinkedIn"