Side Chicks

I can feel my evil ass coming back, and I've never been more excited. Yesterday I was at the gym, a girl tapped my shoulder to ask "how long have you been going to the gym for?", and I hid that big ass smile cause "انا كاريزما جدا", I was fucking happy, she hit me with "لا باين عليكي فاهمة بتعملي ايه يعني", yes baby, I have two side chicks , side chick number one is "progress overload", side chick number two is "muscle to mind connection", I mean I don't look THAT big in real life, but for sure I can FEEL a huge fucking difference and to me that's more than enough. 

Speaking of side chicks, I always feel like guys place women they know in their lives, as the "wifey" or "not wifey" categories, I mean valid, I know for sure from the very first fucking start whether he is a yes or a no, it's always black or white, fuck them grey shit. I mean a lot of girls my age also have "guy" bestfriends, nah that shit doesn't work, they always lowkey have a secret crush on them girls. TBH, I despise those people, them girls and the guys, and even in places like "Arkan" or "Americana Plaza" and that shit, you'll always see them there, 3 girls, 2 boys, ratio like that, they're all laughing very hard over shit that's not even funny, I tried that before, after an exam, last year I tried to hang out with some of my friends, I was the first to leave. That shit is not for me.

I stumbled across a reel "love is like a crusher for a woman who wants to achieve", and tbh I was intrigued. I mean I can't even be in a talking stage, we can meet up every month once, but who would want that, he's only going to think I'm cheating or some shit. I don't have the energy to explain to him what I was doing while knowing well that I was either working, writing, drawing, cooking or building some juicy biceps. 

I'm very satisficed with the position I'm in my life right now, I know I fucking up my shit at school, excuses and shit at work, not very consistent at the gym due to my current very tight ahh schedule, but damn at least I'm not trying to maintain a chopped ass relationship, knowing so damn well he's too childish to be marrying me anytime soon. Come on !!! Iram don't be too harsh. Babe, I'm not harsh, I'm just being real, I'm a real nigga. 

I don't want to get to know someone, we spend time together, we fight we blah ahh bullshit, Nah I want that shit to go like "hey we like each other", fine, next month we're getting married, "خبط رزع كده" or whatever you want to call it, cause here's the deal, I'm hesitant, and very much indecisive, I need "not want" someone who's very assertive, very presumptive, and actually in a very manipulative way "persuasive" . I want someone who would make me feel like "not being with him" or "not acting right so I can be with him" is a fucking loss. I need to feel like losing him is actually something bad, remember when I said, "فيه ناس خسراتها مكسب", yea that shouldn't be the case with him.

But who's him? Bruce Wayne, cause I'm fucking Catwoman remember ? Nah Catwoman is saving Gotham solely for the moment, and in the mean time she's enjoying her life to the fucking max, never been happier, tbh. I just know that I'll be doing "great shit" very fucking soon. Being great was never the case, I know I'll get there, it's only a matter of time. 

And remember you only need two side chicks to do well. 

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